Write for your life

I experienced an overwhelming feeling of joy yesterday…

Anxiety has reigned supreme for the past couple of months, so feeling optimistic and ready to persevere was a welcome change. Yesterday was the day that I allowed myself to truly believe. Believe that I am exactly where I’m supposed to be right now.

I’m ready to let it go… I was let go.

Two months ago, I was fired from my job… I didn’t see that coming. No, honestly. I felt completely blindsided, and it hurt me real bad. I’m the type of person who takes a while to process things…. I tend to let things fester and build up, and even though I’m aware of it, and I know that it’s not healthy… I keep it in, and let it hurt me from the inside out. While it’s true that I’ve been bouncing from job to job during my sales career in IT (seems like every few years I’m into something new). I’ve left one job for another. I’ve pursued new opportunities in order to increase my salary, or just to change locations because we wanted to live in a different city. Still… I had never been fired before. This was a first for me. I was only eight months in, and was told that my “numbers weren’t were they should be”. It was a Wednesday…

I’m ready to let it go…

I keep telling myself that, but in my head - I don’t stop replaying the conversation. I’ve been doing this for a long time so… Why was I so naive? Why didn’t I see the signs? Were there signs? I keep doubting myself. I feel like a failure. I’ve let my family down. I questioned if I would ever be able to land another sales job? Would I be able to support my family? What will everyone think about me?

I need to let it go…

Once I processed what had happened, my emotions changed from doubt and sadness to anger. This is my life! This is my livelihood! This is impacting my family!

Then I let it go… I can hold a grudge, but it’s rare for me to stay angry for long.

I’m letting go… Beginning to move on.

I’m beginning to see all of the opportunities that being fired opened up to me. It’s an opportunity to change course, try something new… Again. It took my better, more beautiful half (my wife) to remind me that everything happens for a reason. You see, because I was hired at this job in the first place is the only reason that she explored an opportunity to become a partner in a business of her own…

Lucky Locks…

Lucky Locks…

The first week on the job we attended a company holiday party. Before we went, I showed my wife the agenda. She saw something she had heard of before and had been wanting to try… Lucky Locks. I had no idea, but she was excited to try them. Turns out that Lucky Locks are silk strands that come in a variety of colors, and are tied to an individual strand of hair and don’t come out until you shed that hair. (Now I know all about them…). Diana was so intrigued. She had gone to school and received her esthetician's license, and a lash certification while we were still living in Austin. Her dream is to have a place of her own, and not just a salon, but a place to empower and support other business women. She started looking into Lucky Locks, and saw that there were partner opportunities available. No one was covering the El Paso, Area! This seemed to fit in perfectly with her vision of making women feel good about themselves. The holiday party was in December, she was a Lucky Locks partner by March! (Check her out on Instagram @luckylocks_elpaso) My being fired didn’t mean the end of the world to my best friend (again… my wife). It meant that she had time… Time to book appointments, time to go out and network. She took the time to show me…

This is her life! This is her livelihood! This is impacting her family! She could take control and create opportunity for our family. She rolled up her sleeves and got to work. You should see her face light up when the kids and I tell her how proud we are of her!

“Take time for you baby” she tells me… “I got this!” She has me help her with emails, making queries to businesses for collaborations, set up at events, and take care of the bookkeeping. “Don’t stop writing baby” she told me the other day… “You can’t stop writing”.

I’ve been halfheartedly looking for another job. There is still fear, uncertainty, and doubt. Slowly but surely, optimism and perseverance are beginning to outweigh everything else.

This is the fifth post I’ve written this month, and that feels good! That feels like progress. Nothing has been taken away from me… I’ve been given a gift! I’ve been given time. I have time to help my wife, while she starts her own business. I have time to be present for my kids, and help them with their homeschool lessons. I have time to take my dad to his doctors appointments, or stay with him when my mom has to run errands. I have time to myself… Time to do what I love….

This is the Write time in my life.

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